Blank mind stares at the page. Desperate to write. Mind racing. Can’t find the words. Frustrated. Feeling incapable. Widely read and desire to read more. Can’t find the time. Faith seeks understanding. In one ear and out the other. My sin creates a barrier. It’s like taking one step forward and four steps back. Start again. Repent. Turn back repeatedly. Don’t harden my heart. Soul is worn down. Create in me a clean heart, O Lord. Be free in the love of Christ, let it fill your soul. I have been saved. I am being saved. By persevering I will be saved.